Co-Dependency is a beast I will tell you! This is something I have been fighting for YEARS! This is also something that has stemmed from my childhood. Being pasted around from family member to family member was so hard, now that I’m seeing it as an adult and dealing with the feelings.

I have spent years of work on myself dealing with this issue. I still have moments where it tries to creep in. Now that I’m a single mother I have had no choice but to learn how to fend for myself. Life in the past few years has taught me some very valuable lessons. I can’t thank God enough for those lessons HIS guidance, HIS grace, HIS love these past couple years. Our relationship I would have to say is getting stronger by the day.

They say when you are the most alone is when God shows! I absolutely love that about Him. After you put in the work you will see the results. Now it’s going to be challenging, please don’t fear it. Don’t let EVIL win! Pray before each lesson or journal entry. Pray before each bible study, woman’s group you’re afraid to walk into. Be BRAVE I promise you will feel better for it later.

I was VERY co-dependent for all of my life and I’m 45 years old. So, I would say for about the last 6 years I’ve been alone. I was married for 17 of those years and this is the first time that I have truly been able to work on myself and my co-dependency. I had 3 children to raise a husband to care for so my self care always went to the back burner. It wasn’t till I met my girlfriend who introduced me to her church and the class HFIO and Co-Dependency. This is where I learned the most about my condition! In my 30’s was the 1st time I was introduced to HEALING self care.

My husband was a non-believer so that was always challenging. He never said no when I went to church, and wasn’t till he got sick that he started attending church. But he was one who would make fun of me for take classes for self care. We both came from families who were against counseling, getting any kind of help in any way it was just frowned upon. You had to keep it in the family so nobody would be embarrassed! So, I felt like I couldn’t judge him. I made excuses for my husband all the time for the way he acted, even when I was disrespected. I just didn’t want the lecture of you shouldn’t be treated that way, you deserve better, etc…although I knew deep down they were right. I knew that whatever my husband and I were going through we could get through it. We truly did our best. I miss him.

I am getting stronger by the day. I do work on myself daily, I read books, listen to my podcast, journal, I am an empath so I have to release and meditate. All these fun things I have learned about myself now that I have SLOWED DOWN and finally spent time with myself. It’s not a bad thing, it’s not being selfish either making time for yourself it’s called SELF CARE! Don’t be afraid to try it once you do you will LOVE IT! Just be careful because once you find something that catches your interest boy I have gone down some rabbit holes on more than one occasion!! Just an FYI!!

There are plenty of tools out there to help you with co-dependency don’t let fear get in the way! Join a group at church, friend group, books, journal, and I LOVE being out in nature. I heal the best when I am out in nature! Nature has this beautiful way of healing you through your soul. Being one with nature is a way to connect with Mother Earth, God, the Universe, whatever you choose to believe in. I believe they all connect in someway but I am very open minded person.