Trying to find a job in today’s world is TOUGH y’all! Let me tell you I have applied to I don’t even know how many places and I have gotten rejected before I even gotten a call! Man it’s TOUGH out there in the world today! I mean I have a job already but in the world today we can’t survive on just one job for most of us. I’m a single mother with 2 kids still at home and it’s not easy. There are days were I have no food in my house because all my money went to paying for my rent that is outrageous, then you have the electricity, water, cable/internet, trash, car insurance, etc..by the time that’s all taken care of just to keep the roof over our heads and a car gassed and insured I have no money left for food, essentials, pet food, etc…I have cut back on anything and everything I can. So, I’m looking for a second job or something that will pay more than what I make to where I can leave and work one.

I finally have an opportunity with Banner Health I’m praying I get it! It would be a great to get my foot in the door there! I have always been a caretaker by nature. Like it’s been instilled in me as a little girl. Being raised by my grandparents who were entrepreneurs I started my customer service at the age of 6 selling watermelon’s by the side of the road with my Tata. Oh the memories of those days! I thought I was the coolest little girl because I was working with my Tata! I do have to thank both sets of my grandparents though because they have given me a work ethic that my employers LOVE! I am one of those people who will take on any challenge in the work place. For example in my current roll I am a Sr. Office Assistant for the ESS Department at my local high school. I have not had a steady facilitator in the past 3 years. So, I have learned that roll as well as my own to keep my campus going so our kids can remain to receive their services. Was it a challenge? HELL YES. But someone had to do the job. Till they could get me someone in there who can do the job.

As we all know working in the education system is rewarding but the pay is TERRIBLE! I tell God/Universe if I am meant to stay in this job you will provide the funds for me to stay. It worked for a while till this year. God started making me feel very UNCOMFORTABLE in my work place because it’s time for me to leave. Hence my previous post CHANGE!!! So, I made the decision NOT to leave the school till I found something that would either replace it completely or add to it whatever God brings my way. I’m keeping an open mind, heart, and soul about this whole situation! I’m staying positive, happy, excited, steadfast, and determined. I’m blessed to have the opportunity for today’s interview this job looks exciting, new, in a new place, with new people, and I get to help people my most favorite thing to do. Remember that whole human design? YEP THAT’S ME AGAIN! When we find our purpose in life and we master it that is when we find our bodies the most grounded and happy! So, don’t ignore the signs if you are starting to feel FRUSTRATED in your current position!

Always be willing to go outside your comfort zone, be BRAVE, be EXCITED to try something NEW. Don’t lose FAITH, because you never know what door will open for you right around the next turn! Trust me when I say this I was NOT this person a couple of years ago. I was just as scared and timid. I wanted to stay and be comfortable I already had time invested in the school. I told myself that nobody would be there to care for the kids the way I do. But here is the catch…that was my EGO y’all. I was looking at it all WRONG. It took me going though all this self healing to see my OWN SELF WORTH. This year I had a facilitator who would yell at me from her office and call me like I was her PET, blame me for HER WORK not getting done, she NEVER took the time to get to know my staff, students, or their parents by name!!! EVEN THE ONES WHO CAME TO SEE ME DAILY AT MY DESK AT LUCH!!!! I had NEVER been in my Principles office as many times in one year as I have this year. Although I had his support, he was checking in on me to make sure I was ok, I nearly quit on him twice. On my evals it states that I am one of the most flexible people to work with especially with the high turn over at our campus. This lady takes the CAKE! So, as you start healing and working on yourself I will tell you now, things that never used to bother you before because you were a door mat for so long are GOING TO BUG THE SHIT OUT YOU NOW! ONLY BECAUSE YOU KNOW YOUR WORTH! THAT’S A BEAUTIFUL THING!

Now learning how to manage the anxiety after you heal is another story. I had some issues with that but breathing exercises helped, I had my air pods in my ears so I didn’t have to listen to her. I just kept it to wear I could hear my phone of course. I have always been in high stress jobs because that’s where I thrive as my human design has confirmed for me. I never really understood till now. But I have the capability to handle stressful environments and sort through what needs attention first and go from there. Which is why I would like to join the health care field. I feel my skills would be better utilized in that environment. It’s funny I have always felt a calling to the health care field but never went, because I had other influences in my life steering my ship. Now I have the freedom to do whatever the HELL I WANT! It’s such an AMAZING feeling! I hope y’all get to feel this one day if you haven’t already! You know I still see it today even as a coach I have parents who just feel that it’s their right to TELL their children WHAT they HAVE to BE when they grow up. As a mother I have given my children the choice to choose. I have guided them and given them the education they needed but it was always their choice what career they wanted in life. I choose to BREAK the cycle of everything I was taught as a kid other than teaching my kids my work ethic, kindness, and to always respect your elders. I wish you a blessed day…TTYL!