As I continue on this adventure of healing and finding my purpose. I have stumbled across a podcast show with Holley Gerth. She offers classes on her website that cost money. Unfortunately, I can’t afford to go to therapy nor have the time. This is my outlet. Sharing the tools she uses is a true blessing. They help you figure out who you are and what your purpose is. I have had so much fun trying to peel back the layers of Me. I’ve enjoyed working on the many things in my life.

I’m not going to tell you that its going to be easy. We all have real life situations we have to deal with. Please don’t let that stop you from becoming who you are supposed to be. Changing the mindset of all the negative things I was shown as a child has been hard. With God by my side I have found the inner strength to continue with this adventure. Be brave and take the time for some soul searching. It’s been awesome learning who I am to be in this world.

They say stress is a silent killer and my fear is that one day it may take me. I have to remember that I’m an empath and have to keep asking myself, who feelings are who’s. By reading and taking time for myself I have been able to work on me. Through scripture, podcasts, church, and women’s group I have learned how to manage my stress and anxiety. The tools they share and the stories of the Bible help you feel that your not alone in this world. Many people don’t know a crucial fact. We have to retrain our brains to live as we are meant to live. This is opposed to being told how to live. I have to admit this has made me a stronger woman.

I have spent 44 years of my life living the wrong way. I have been hurt, broken, cheated on, lost loved ones, and been taken advantage of. Now that I’m living life with just me and my children I am so much happier. I can make choices for myself. I’m no longer under someone’s spell. I am free to live and learn from God and my fellow followers. I can be who I was meant to be! It’s a very freeing feeling. Although it’s not easy and I still have my challenges I can say that I feel better now! I’ve waited so long to stand up for myself and be my own person.

When I was married I was so worried about pleasing my husband I molded myself into what he wanted. We had a rough start in our relationship. Many hoops to jump through! I had other women who my husband had children with before me and at the same time as me. So, life was challenging from the start. I was 20 years old. I gave my whole life to him and our children. We lost him in 2019. I was never the strong one in the relationship he was. I just did whatever I could to make him happy.

Now that I’m in a new relationship I have learned to speak my mind. We communicate with transparency, love, respect, and honesty. I continue to grow with the support of my loved ones. This is how life should be. Once you get a taste of how life should be you truly fight like HELL to keep it. I having peace of mind. I having a peaceful heart. I also have a peaceful soul. When we stop to smell the roses and take life one day at a time it’s much easier to tolerate. I have learned that I have a very sensitive nervous system. I have been living as an extrovert and I am an introvert. So, taking the time to learn who you are is beneficial. You understand what sets you off. You find out what makes you happy. You learn how to become a better human.

"I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well."
Psalm 139:14