Do you every get overwhelmed by working and running your home life? YES, I do! Usually one of these are out of balance at some point, but right now they are both out of balance! The pressure of it all can truly test your Faith. I have to remember that God is here and that I have to release some of my stress onto Him. Sometimes when you are so overwhelmed, you feel helpless. In those moments, stand strong. Remember that the Devil is right around the corner. That Devil I tell you is nothing compared to the main man!

So, while my home and work are both unbalanced at the moment. I have to remember that I have to talk to God and give him some of this stress I caring. Learning how to be a single Mom has been a challenging and I’m still trying to be better. With all the noise and the interference of life’s unexpected curve balls I feel like I have done well. It was because I have God by my side. Sometimes God doesn’t answer right away, you have to realize that he’s working on your behalf. You have to remember that there are lessons He wants you to learn while you go through life.

I have had to learn how to balance my life. Because I am a Generator in my human design I struggle with taking on too much in life. Now that I’m learning about myself, I have to know when to let go. I need to understand how to release things I’m not meant to hold onto. I’ve had to learn if I’m a micro planner vs macro planner. I like to see the bigger picture and work towards my goals. Micro-planning is the process of creating detailed, operational, and bottom-up plans for small-scale, local, or specific, immediate, actionable tasks. Macro-level planning involves a strategic and long-term approach. It defines the overall “what,” “why,” and “when” of a project or organization.

Process based vs Outcome based. Process-based planning is a management approach that structures organizational activities, projects, or manufacturing as interconnected, repeatable processes. These are seen as a series rather than isolated tasks. Outcome-based planning is a strategic approach that prioritizes achieving specific, measurable results (outcomes) over just delivering tasks or outputs. I am very much a process based planner, I have to feel motivated to get my job done. Being in a job that is repetitive I have many challenges. I get board very quickly witch makes it hard to stay in jobs for a long period of time. I usually change jobs every 5 years or so because I’m made to learn.

I’m also an Obliger! Obligers meet outer expectations, but struggle to meet inner expectations. They’re motivated by external accountability; they wake up and think, “ What must I do today?” There are 4 types Questioner, Upholder, Rebel, and Obliger. Take the test and find out witch one you are. We learn all about our history and where we come from. It wasn’t till now that I realized I needed to research myself. This research helps me find my balance.

Learning who we are is so important so we can be happy with our work and home lives. I carved out time for myself. This allowed me to learn about myself. Otherwise, I would have never known all these wonderful things about myself. This is how you learn what jobs make you happy, give you inside tricks to how your children act etc.. I have definitely found this newfound adventure enlightening. I am uncovering what my parents and society wanted me to be. At the same time, I am discovering who I was meant to be!

So, here is my challenge to you. Take your personality test, tendency test, and human design test. Unveil the beautiful person God has made you to be. This is in contrast to what your parents and the world want you to be. If you’re anything like me, I have to please the whole world around me but not myself. This will truly help you find out how special and amazing you truly are. I can’t afford nor have the time to see a therapist. Instead, I listen to my Podcasts to get the tools and tests. This helps me find out who I am while also hearing positive feedback!

 "I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made..." 
— Psalm 139:14