I am the type of mom that has a hard time stopping, do you have that problem? I am so busy in life that I don’t find time for vacations, mental breaks, or even naps. I’m learning that being the busy person I am has also caused me so much pain. As I continue to learn about myself, I have to admit that slowing down has been magical. Understanding what my body needs to maintain itself has been enlightening. I have had the opportunity to learn stuff about myself I never imagined was there still.

This past week we took a trip to Vegas to escape our reality. We got invited to A/C convention. Although it was for work, it was a great chance for us to connect with our past. I got to see Def Leppard who was one of my father’s favorite bands. They sounded so good for their age, and being in a small venue made it even better. We went to visit the Pinball Hall of Fame. In the 80’s, I grew up with parents who played in softball, volleyball, and bowling leagues. You practically grow up in bars with such an upbringing. This was me…I was that kid who grew up in the bar scene. I have to say that it made me the social butterfly I am today.

So, I have to be thankful for my past for it has made me who I am today. I
feel like all the challenges had lessons behind them. As I continue to unfold the essence of myself, I learn from the mistakes I’ve made. I become a better person for it. I will continue to learn the amazing lessons of life. Although some of these lessons were not the easiest lessons to overcome. I feel l become stronger as a woman as each day passes.

Learning how to find my inner child was accomplished this week in Vegas. It was so much fun to play pinball and just be in that moment. I listened to music from my youth. I missed my Dad but also felt his presence with me. We enjoyed the concert together. This is what I have learned through the art of loss and self-healing. It’s truly a blessing once you allow yourself to become the most important person in your life. You become this new person who learns the value of one’s self. Once you learn who you are, you will become more at peace with yourself. Understand your worth. Discover who you’re meant to be in this world.

I have worked in every single job industry you can think of. I have not found that one place that makes me happy. I’m still searching for that one thing I was put on this earth to do and be. Revisiting my childhood has shown me a glimpse of what I used to be like. I used to act without fear of judgment. I had the freedom to be whoever I wanted to be in that moment! I never used to care what people thought of me as a person or I should say kid. I need to go back to that silly little girl who never cared what others thought.

I was domesticated, as most of us are. We have to realize that all of our lives we have been told and taught what to do and say. This realization comes when we finally pick up a book or snap out of the spell we are under. I purely didn’t like the person I was. The hardest thing for some of us is that we only wish we found out sooner right! I would love to have learned how to fall in love with myself sooner. But unfortunately, I was never taught that. Alternatively, I was shown that but didn’t understand it for what it was then.

For you formed my inward parts: you knitted me together in my mother's womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Psalm 139:13-14