You live in the fast lane of life. You feel like you can’t come up for air. You just push yourself to your breaking point! This is me! I have lived my life in that fast lane it feels like my whole life! I became an Auntie at the age of 6. I took care of my nephew and little brother, who was 3 at the time. I was the MIDDLE child. Sister was 10 years older and little bro was 3 years younger than I. So, I was in quite the pickle. I had a sister who had a kid at 16, brother who was 3, and newborn baby nephew! I was NEVER seen!

Now that I have come to some of these harsh memories and realizations in my life, I will say that the pain is truly painful. However, it is absolutely necessary! This is how we heal from the inside out. We must delve into the roots of who we are. Only then can we confront all the pain we concealed many years ago! I have learned so much on this journey. God, journeying, and pure soul searching have taught me so many things. It’s become intoxicating getting to know MYSELF!

You see all these years I have lived for others. I was a people pleaser. I had to make EVERYONE happy. I had to make sure EVERYONE’S needs were met. I had to make sure that I was needed at all times of the day. But what about ME? I had completely forgotten about myself. I had completely forgotten that I existed. I deserved time in my OWN CRAZY WORLD! Because of the way I was raised, I became a mother at such a young age. As a result, I became the OVER PROTECTIVE mother I am today. “SLAP IN MY FACE” now I’m awake….

I am a Libra it is my job and soul purpose to keep life in balance. I am learning my balance in this life. I will continue to read my design. I will connect with my planets and stars. I aim to get into alignment with my one true self. I will continue to learn my gifts from my Devine maker. This new ME will thrive like never before! If you realize that the tests of life include loss, love, passion, family, and sin, you will see they aim to open your heart. They encourage connection to God’s life. These experiences are God’s way. They help in opening your heart to his life. We must feel fear and feel pain. We must also feel passion of love and loss. We must sin and be judged to know one’s true self of the Devine maker.

We are so perfectly imperfect in this life, and it takes going through life’s experiences to learn from ones self. As you peel yourself back layer by layer it’s truly a satisfying and intoxicating adventure. You start to learn from your own lessons of life. You start to see where to make the changes that need to be changed! Then you truly wonder why the HELL didn’t I do this sooner??? Well I have the answer for you. It’s because it wasn’t God’s timing…you see He plays such an amazing role in your life. You must choose to accept His influence, whether you call it the Universe, the Divine, the Spirits, the One, or whatever you choose to believe in. Yet, people should just believe in themselves! For truly knowing ones self is truly INTOXICATING!

He said to her, 
"Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering,"
Mark 5:34